He awoke with sudden shock which made his hands shake, his heart race and nausea filled his stomach. As he tried to gain his composure, his mind raced with possibilities. Where was he? What happened? How did he get here? With every possible answer, came another question and with every question, fear entered his mind.
In order to attempt composure, he remembered songs that his mother had sung when he was a little boy. Every night, his mother would sit at his bedside and make up songs about the day. She sang soft and sweet. Every song, a lullaby. Every note, a soothing agent. No matter how bad or good his day went, she always sang with her gentle, soothing voice. Even the angriest of animals would be lulled to sleep when she sang.
Once he was ready to sleep, she would sing her last note and say, “Goodnight my David. Remember, Jesus never sleeps.”
“Jesus never sleeps”, David thought. Unfortunately, this gave no consolation to his current predicament. He knew his eyes were open, but nothing could be seen. Neither height, nor depth, nor width of his surroundings were known to him. Darkness enveloped his very being. All he knew, was when he stretched out his hands, no walls or ceiling were present. Only the floor was detected, a dirt floor with some small rocks. Again, the thoughts raced, “Where am I? How did I get here? Am I blind?” The unknown became the messenger of fear. The more his realization of the unknown, the more he feared.
“Hello!” David cried. “Is anyone out there? Help!”
No answer came. Only the echo of his own voice. Again David cried out, “HELP! I can’t see! Anyone, please help me.”
Frozen with fear, David felt he couldn’t move because he couldn’t see. If he moved, how would he know where to go? Would he fall? What if something attacked him? How would he defend himself without sight? His fears became so great that his mind tortured his soul with such force that his body responded with paralysis.
Moments later, he heard a voice, “David. Are you there?”
David thought to himself, “I must be hearing things.”
The voice came a second time, “David. Are you there?”
Knowing, beyond doubt, David cried out, “Yes! I’m here! Help me!”
“Follow my voice. It’s the only way!”
David thought, “How can I follow a voice? What if they bring me deeper into this place? What if this is a trap?” Gaining some composure, David yelled, “How can I trust you?”
“Follow my voice. It’s the only way”, the voice said a second time.
“But how can I trust you?”
“Follow my voice. It’s the only way.”
Although David knew he didn’t have many options, he also understood that following this voice may be the only way to survive. With extreme caution, David bent down on his hands and knees and began his journey crawling in the direction he thought the voice was coming from.
“That’s it David, crawl toward me”, the voice exclaimed.
While David continued his crawl, he realized the voice had exclaimed something extraordinary. The voice knew he was crawling. He couldn’t see anything or anyone, so how did the voice know he was on his hands and knees? David began to fear again. What if this voice was leading him away from the exit? Would there be enough air for him to breathe? Suddenly, David stopped and sat with his legs crossed, as he didn’t know what was around him.
“Why did you stop, David?”
“How did you know I stopped?”
“David, follow my voice. It’s the only way.”
David didn’t know what to do. Was he to continue his journey or sit there and wonder how he would survive this ordeal? Almost instantaneously, David remembered something else his mother had done with him as a child; she held his hand until he fell asleep. Every night she sang, his mother would also hold his hand as if to reassure him that everything was going to be okay. Her tender touch would bring his mind to ease and his heart to calm.
“David, follow my voice. It’s the only way”, the voice said again and again. Every few minutes the voice would reach out and call to David to start his journey again. Over and over, the voice called to him, sometimes loud, sometimes soft. It was then David began to analyze the voice. It was a soothing, soft man’s voice. It was as if the voice understood his feelings and gently called out to David. The times which were louder, David felt that the voice wanted a response. The softer times, the voice just wanted to let him know it was still there.
After thinking of his mother, he decided to continue his journey on all fours once again. David propped himself to the awkward position and began to travel toward the voice once more. It was then David noticed his hands and knees began to hurt. Rawness started to encroach on his flesh. Movement led to pain and pain to fear. Suddenly, David felt moisture on his hands and knees. He didn’t hear water so could only assume the crawl had taken a toll on him. He feared he was starting to bleed. David didn’t understand why this was happening to him or why.
The voice cried out, “David. Get up and walk. It’s the only way.”
David got up as if to say, “I trust you”. Although attempting to stand bore more pain, a different kind of pain, he knew the voice was right. From his crawl position, he was able to get to his feet. After a moment of stretching his muscles into proper position, he started to take his first steps.
Each step was more daunting than the next. He wasn’t sure how to walk in the dark as like most people, rely on sight to accomplish this task. With each step he stumbled. Left in front of right and right in front of left was the mantra he repeated to himself. Every so often, he would fall from a loose rock or dizziness. He would then hear the voice and get back up and continue the journey step by step.
Without warning, he saw a white dot in the distance. What was it? Could it be? A sliver of light appeared in front of him. When he saw the light, it changed his mentality and attitude. He realized that fear was gone and pain was diminishing. It was then he heard, “David, continue toward the light. It’s the only way.”
David wanted to run and even tried. However, when he ran, he would fall causing pain and fear to reenter into his body, mind and soul. He decided that walking was the better of choices. At least he would only stumble occasionally. With every step, the light grew and when the light grew, so did hope. David knew the end of his journey was in sight, or so he thought.
Suddenly, David took one wrong step and fell. His fall was not like the others. He fell on his back and slid hard and fast. As he slid, he tried to stop but could not. Finally, he slowed down and came to a stop. As he rolled over to prop himself up, he looked around and didn’t see the light. What had happened? Did he slide that far back? Fear and pain began to grow while he felt hope was lost. He sat down once again and cried.
“David, follow my voice. It’s the only way”, the voice called out.
Like before, the voice called out over and over again as if to motivate David to continue his journey. This time, David did not wallow in fear and pain. He called back, “Okay, I’ll try again.”
The voice said, “When I tell you, reach to your left.”
David didn’t understand what the voice meant, but since the voice brought him to the light, he figured the voice knew something he didn’t. David continued his slow journey step by step. This time he didn’t stumble as much. He barely tripped or fell. After what seemed like hours, David heard the voice call to him once again, “Reach to your left”.
Trusting the voice, David reached out with this left hand and slowly moved it toward his left, circling up and down attempting to grasp at whatever may have been there. At that moment, it felt like, something brushed his fingers. He wasn’t sure, got on his knees and reached out with both hands. After a few minutes of flailing his arms in front of him, David gripped the object that brushed his hand. To his surprise, the object felt braided and course. It was a rope. He gripped the rope with both hands and raised himself to his feet.
As he held the rope, he looked up and saw the light again. This time, it was bigger than ever. It appeared to be almost the size of a full moon on a clear summer night. David then realized his journey was going to end. Once again, fear and pain seemed to be swept away by the freedom of hope.
David started to reflect on this journey and realized one question remained, how did he get there to begin with? He remembered hiking in the woods and pitching his tent. He remembered the fire he created to keep warn and cook some food. He remembered falling asleep and waking up to a noise outside of his tent. He remembered wanting to fall back asleep but kept tossing and turning due to the anxiety he felt from the forest noises.
As he continued to climb, he thought to himself, “Maybe this is a dream? Maybe this isn’t real.” He continued to rummage through various thoughts and scenarios in an effort to answer his questions. However, just as before, no answer came. It was then David realized that he hadn’t heard the voice in a while. He stopped climbing to rest and catch his breath. David then shouted, “Voice, are you still there?”
No answer came.
“Voice”, he said a second time, “Are you still there?”
Again, no answer came.
David mumbled, “I knew you would leave me. Everyone else has.” As David wallowed in his state of loneliness, he realized that the light was not only peering but also exposing his surroundings. David looked around and noticed he was surrounded by dirt and rocks. David realized he was in a cave. He also noticed that a small, shallow body of water was within reach. It was then David realized how thirsty he was. As the feeling of thirst grew, David willed himself to his feet and began to walk toward the body of water. Then David heard something strange, it was running water.
Bending down, he dipped his hands into the body of water and took a long drink. He had hoped the water was not contaminated but without thinking, he drank the water until his thirst was satisfied. After a few more minutes of rest, David felt that he needed to continue to leave this place, this cave of fear and pain. He rose from his spot, walked over to the rope and continued his climb.
What seemed like days later, David was able to let go of the rope. The incline became flat. David realized his journey was about to end. He could now see the outside world. Hope then became belief. David now knew he was about to leave this cave of fear and pain. As David reached the opening to the cave, he heard the voice once again, “David. Welcome to my fields.”
David looked around but didn’t see anyone. He responded, “Where are you?”
“I am here, but you cannot see me right now”, the voice exclaimed. “Listen to my words and obey my commands.”
David wasn’t sure if he wanted to listen or obey but decided to respond rather harshly, “You left me! I was alone in there and you left me. I cried out to you but you did not respond. Why?”
The voice responded, “Who was it that led you to the light? Who was it that led you to the rope? Who was it that placed you there? Who was it that subdued your fear and pain?”
David couldn’t respond. He lowered his head feeling weakness and shame. David then recognized, the voice had been with him the entire journey. While David sulked with shame and disbelief, the voice said, “My son, don’t feel shame or disbelief. You followed my voice. You followed my light. Well done. Now I have something else for you to do. Look behind you.”
David lifted his head and slowly turned around. He saw a torch, some food and a container to hold water on a large boulder. As he walked toward the items on the boulder, the voice said to him, “Take those items and go back into the cave. There search the cave and look for others who have heard my voice or seen my light. Help them on their journey. Encourage them that the end is near. Teach them about the rope, how to trust in the voice and light and not to worry about the ‘what if’ thoughts. Lead them out of the cave and into this field.”
David looked up and asked, “But how will I know who they are? How many are there? Why did you place us there?” Questions ravaged his mind. He was confused as to what had really happened.
“David”, the voice said, “Do you remember last night when you cried out to me? When you asked me to help you out of your problems?”
Suddenly, David remembered that just before he fell asleep, he cried out to God asking him for help. He didn’t want to waste his life and wanted a new direction. It was then David realized who he was talking to.
“Lord, forgive my doubt”, David responded.
With a sense of compassion, the voice said to David, “Do not worry about how many or why. All I ask is that you do what I commanded you. Others need you. I need you. Therefore, go and enter the cave. Help others believe.”
David gripped the items on the boulder. He approached the opening to the cave and lit the torch. One last question plagued his mind, “How will I know when my task is done?”
The voice responded, “When you see Me, then you will be finished.”
“When will I see you?” asked David.
“When you are finished”, the voice responded.
David realized every answer had a question, but not every question deserved an answer. As he entered the mouth of the cave, he saw an inscription on the wall. The inscription said, “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me.” David then remembered the words of his mother, “Jesus never sleeps.” With comfort on his mind and with a sigh of anticipation, David entered the cave and searched for others that were like him. Those that are afraid. Those that are hurting. Those who have no hope. As David found others, he would tell them about his journey, his struggles and his discoveries. He would remind them about the voice and show them the light. David now lived the journey that once overtook him with fear and pain. Finally, David understood that this life was not about him. It was about finding and helping others to see the Light and hear the voice of God.
“All authority in heaven and on earth has been give to me. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” – Jesus Christ. (Matthew 28:18-20 NIV)
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